The past few days I had some horrifying binges. I've been eating and eating on ice-cream, chocolate, chips, crackers... Everythink that is forbidden. I eat till my tummy is swollen, and hurt badly. Then I walk to the bathroom and put three fingers down my throat, and I guess everyone know what I'm doing. I rather want to be anorexic than bulimic. Mia is awfull! She makes me gain weight. I'm up to 87 pounds now. It's terrible. I will try to restric again today, but it's so hard. When I got my binge yesterday I ate:

1 big pizza

2 boxes with pringles

1 bag M&M and

1 kg with grapes

1 box ice-cream

I don't even know how my tummy could contain all that food, because I waited untill I was finishe with everything before I wnt to throw it up. ANyway, I will try really hard to not binge today.

Wish me luck!

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